Hey there.
The wind is sweeping past my hair.
Its giving me chills.
My heart still aches.
I see him everyday.
And every minute makes me furious.
Why ? Im sorry but i dont have the answer myself.
I cant really explain what im going through right now.
But i can say its not pleasant.
I scribbled on some tissue paper "I like you but i cant tell you. "
I drew on my arm. Something was really wrong with me today.
I poured out 97.6% of my feelings to Rayyan.
I think hes the only one that can really understand me. And my head.
It's really eating me up.
I cant sleep.
I swear. I know it sounds super cliched but fuck it.
Cliches can happen bitch. So fuck you.
Everytime i try to sleep, thoughts start to invade my mind.
And my heart will start pumping.
My eyes will eventually open.
And then fuck i cant sleep. Back to tossing.
It hurts alot lah ok.
The feelings stopped for a couple of weeks.
But it came back.
FUCKING DIE, FEELINGS.
Cos i know it'll go nowhere.
And i dont wanna get hurt.
It'll so not work out.
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You told me to try cos you said i'd never know.
But my guts say he'll shake his head and say sorry.
But anyways, last Friday was awesome.
Got wasted, played card games and made new friends.
I love you guys. ((:
Thank you for being such incredibly shitty, stupid and funny human beings.
MWAAAH.
