You resurrected from the dead.
You came back.
Out of a sudden, out of the blue.
I wished you hadn't, believe it or not.
Honestly, my heart isnt racing anymore.
Yesterday's ice cream never tasted better, 5 cancer sticks in one go satisfied my paranoia sitting beside you.
If i were you, i would have vanished, and never returned.
Staring blankly into the walls, thinking on my bed.
Thoughts cloud my mind, so misty i cant think rationally.
Cos deep inside i know, game over.
Why hold on to something you know you could never get ? Let go.

Seriously.
You're a jerk.

Goodbye is a word i never intend to say to a person.
Especially if much love and care was poured in, without a tint of regret.
It happened. Yet again.
Maybe i should really start meditating.
These multiple occurances is making me deprived.
Of what i had imagined it'd be like ever since 12.
"oh here it goes again."
Sleepless nights and nervous breakdowns all over again.
Strike 3.
Fareed is prolly sick of my same ol' shit, but hes hanging in there.
For me, for his BFF. <3
And from the bottom of my heart, i would like to extend my deepest gratitude towards his never ending encouragement and his own style words of wisdom. =D
"As i was just about to anchor my heart, he pulled back the rope and stabbed it off."
23 gunshots would have not have caught a person dead, but three heartbreaks in a row seems enough.

As you screamed.
As you prayed.
As you longed.
So very badly.
For this thing called affection.
And when it was finally delivered, you felt you have just struck a royal flush.
So very near to impossibility, yet achievable.
This is the last time of abandoning.
I wish i could.
Time span between texts grew from hours to days.
What more meet ups.
Maybe you;re tired. And broke.
Gah.
Cant push it underground, cos your name is screaming in my head.
Now you know im trapped, i want a vacation now.
I wont let you murder me, smother me nor bury me.

Go girl.
Questions left unanswered.
Or maybe not even bothered tryin to answer.
Lay down the honest truth.
How preposterous it may be.
Work is so mundane.

Webcam-ed with Keemy yest.
Haha, never fails to make me feel like hot pee.
Gah. He has taken yummy to the next level.
To a level no guy has reached. HAHAHA.
Okay, imma bit biased. Smooch me.

I cant seem to close my eyes.
They somehow forgotten how to shut.
My body refuses to shut down.
All thanks to my mind.
Who inconsiderately kept wandering.
To places, and thoughts that kept my heart beating faster, rejuvenating the fluttering butterflies in my tummy.
My oh my.
Ive never wanted something so bad.
Will i get away victorious this time ?
My ultimate trophy is worth 120931 times more than an Oscars.
Haha. =D
Oh baby, in love indeed i am with my new shoes.

Syed Faruk
Met in 1998, you were the golden boy in class.
Your skin's so pale, your hair was golden brown.
You were the only malay boy in the class.
Coincidentally, we randomly scored the same marks for our malay papers.
Which unfortunately sparked off a stupid rumour abt us liking each other and shit.
Haha. Pri sch stuffs.
We had a chance to sit beside each other for a period of time, sandwiched between Kenneth and you was indeed fun.
I remembered how you and Kenneth would cover your books during Mental Sums, so i couldnt get a peep.
And when my sister would appear at the corridor, youd be like "EH TOYOL !" cos of her hair, how you would call me Fat Ham...
Having the class gathering in March was so fortunate, and you turning up was a blessing considering you being MIA the whole time.
It was nice, having to know you in this lifetime.
May god bless your soul. Amin.

EMMA NADIRA NIETZEL Hi there. Ive been breathing for 22 years now on this little sunny island. My 22nd was sucha blast, everytime i walk past Concorde, ill smile. (: Oh i tend to keep some things private, just in case.