Have you ever experienced forced love ?
Or is there even such a thing ?
Like right now.
Im trying hard or rather my best to love him.
Whenever he asks me whether i love him, i stutter.
Cos in my mind, i dont. Neither does the heart.
But somehow i dont wanna lose him.
I dont know what the fuck im feeling right now...but it sucks.
I wouldnt say hes my dream...cos simply, he's not.
Honestly, I'd dare say hes my rebound.
Ive yet to get over Travis.
I HAVE TO FUCKING GET OVER HIM. PERIOD.
Everytime his name pops into my mind, tears would well up.
Like why cant it be him ?
As for that matter, why cant it be anyone that i already had my heart on ?
I dont want him.
I want Travis.
I know you want me to reciprocate your love and devotion you had showered me, but i just cant.
It doesnt feel right to me.
It felt wrong.
Like im lying to myself, and im torturing myself.
Le sigh.
Its going to be the end of 2007 soon.
Time for new resolutions.
Maybe 2, maybe 3.
I dont know.
In other happier news, Aszmi has been really sweet to me. ((:
And i really appreciate it okay.
P.S I really dig those chinky eyes of yours !
